Quit moping pathetic moron.

At least you have your delusional self to discuss things with.

I think I might just use this to record my dreams, since I have way too many to record on paper. And sometimes I like to glance back on them. And here I can have a personal archive.

I miss you already..

End of hiatus.

Looking back at these random cryptic depressing entries is a bit strange. Hah. Guess I've just decided to continue writing entries here for when I get bored. And considering no one actually reads this, it should be quite easy to let it out. And at least then I can have some sort of recollection of my year.

Rest in peace Kalau.

May your sweet soul roam freely now.
2002 - 19/12/2009.

You're not here.

And you never have been.
But I still miss you all the same.


I always will.

I dreamt

of you again. This time. It was almost perfect.



Woke up and you weren't the same. Not even a bit.

Hmm?

You're the best. You're the worst. I love you. I hate you. You make me wanna smile. You make me cry. Let me. Haha. What. The. Fuck.

I said

Hi.








Kitty said Meow.

Bleh.

.. Just.

You said

I wasn't real. Just a fake. Wasn't good enough. Didn't wanna see me again. Told you so. And then you left.


But I woke up. And you weren't even there. But you're still here. Argh. What.

You know

I'd stop life itself just to speak with you one last time.

:)

uo Yevo LI..

In socks?



Really must find something better to do at 3am..

p Ue Mrevo C.

With your pure white veil. So pale it hurts.










I want more snow.

Cuthbert The Snowman.

Is the loveliest sweetcorn snowman in the world.

I want to

watch the snow fall down on your face.

Big Issue Lady.

Wake up and smile. I would like to talk to you.


I will buy a Big Issue one day. If I have money. Just because.

Dream.

Did not ignite.
Gas spread all over the room.
Failed attempt to turn it off.
Inhaled too deep.
Went down my throat.
Into my lungs.
Got to my head.
Couldn't see you clearly anymore.
Feeling dizzy.
Cannot speak.
Wanna shout out.
Mind going numb.
Need to escape.
Floating.
Escaping.
Releasing.
I am not a part of it anymore.

Wake up.
Heart is beating furiously.
Mind is still spinning.
Eyes open.

What a strange dream.

Rawr.

Didn't even know I had an account on here. But I do. So I'll maybe sometimes use this for personal stuff to look at later on in life. Just found some random old 'poetry' stuff on this computer. It's mostly senseless ramblings and crap. But I guess I'll just store it on here. In no particular order.

#1

Take my hand and hold it tight.

Time is grand!

Our future's bright.

Escape is no option.

No way can you run.

To a path of destruction.

Like the barrel in a gun.

#2

Lingering lips, upon one another.

Heaven's sweet passion continues to roam.

Two beings refraining from leave each other.

Each parting is met with a groan.

#3

There's no room left for this caterpillar to bloom.

While you're still here, smiling without a care.

Deep inside I'm dying, and outside you're still crying.

Still holding that frown, through unhappiness I drown.

#4

You see me lay here on the ground.

Yet, you just leave without a thought.

Its just like I've still not been found.

At times I see, your smile I've brought.

As you step so carelessly upon my being.

If only to hear that desirable groan.

I gasp in agony.

Deep inside I'm bleeding.

The Earth's surface absorbs me.

As I plunge in much deeper still.

Terrible stuff. Haha.

<3

Just testing this out.
Wheee!
So I wanna go out, but it's raining and an accomplice is difficult to find at this point. -_-
Ugh, well I guess I'll just vanish out into the rain by myself, ad hopefully the day will turn out better that it has done previously in similar situations.
Blahhh.